I hurt myself again tonight
blinded, the lights are too bright
I tattoo the pain onto my skin
wondering what phase my moon is in
but this place I can’t escape from
somehow still feels like home
I see the dark clouds slowly creeping
vision turns grey and body’s aching
mouth goes dry and I forget breathing
legs feel weak and my heart stops beating
I feel the world around me shrink
my soul is leaving, it’s at the brink
I close my eyes and stay still
before this ends, I know I will
when I was locked in my room alone
I wanted to just end it all.
I don’t know why I keep going on
when it’s easier to just fall
there’s nothing to be blamed
and I know I can’t be saved
I’m not running anymore, it’s not a race
maybe it is, but I’ve given up anyways
I know this is not where I belong
so things will get better once I’m gone.
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