Mind, thoughts, and feelings sore
as I stood on the crimson floor
with broken glass in my heart
alone, I tried not to fall apart
I yearned to feel something
just tired of living like nothing
My life is just a big fat lie
feeling alive only when I try to die
living in my mind without rent
I hear the monsters in my head
to kill them would be my end
so maybe I’m just better off dead
It’s a lost cause, there’s no hope
time heals, but I can’t cope
I kept thinking it was not fair
nothing can end this despair
sleepless nights and silent screams
wish it was just one of my bad dreams
As I stood on the cliff
I felt myself become stiff
at this moment, I’m all I had
and about this, I won’t feel bad
this pain was all I could feel
and this, time couldn’t heal
I felt cold and heavy
my eyes closed, I wasn’t ready
but I realized I wouldn’t dare
even though I say I don’t care
I could see the sky finally bare
as I tried to end this nightmare.
~Sanaa
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